My Only Wish

I wish I had faith; I wish I could close my eyes and convince myself to trust what they say,
I wish I could walk into a church and feel I’m home; I wish I could pray and feel I can get an answer.
Life is such an ambiguous concept, a wild dream; I wish I could see it the way I’m supposed to…
Like a mission God gave me.
I wish I could do all that; but I don’t wish that my life is limited by a book
I don’t wish to stop questioning orders, I don’t wish to follow rules I don’t believe in
I don’t wish to love people I hate, and hate people I love.
I wish God could hear this, I wish he could understand me
I wish he knows that this,is who I am. A question maker, a skeptical with a heart.
And I do not wish otherwise.