No Going Back

Tonight I wrap you tenderly
deep inside my heart
It’s the only place here on earth
We’ll never be apart
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If I could only travel back
so I could make you see
I should have shouted louder
how much you meant to me.
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I tried to live life your way
but I couldn’t make the grade
all the smoking and the drinking
I was mortally afraid.
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I tried to make you mend your ways
to make you want to choose
I couldn’t stand the sight of you
so drunk, and full of booze.
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You were mean to me that night
and found it easy to refuse
you told me that the drink would win
that I was bound to lose.
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I knew for sure that I had lost
there was nothing left to save
that night I gave up everything
and began to walk toward my grave.