is this who i am to be?

when i wake in the morning,i can never just get up...
it takes me time,but maybe i'm not alone in that?
the first thing i do,when i drag my self to my feet..
stare at my face in the mirror,not the large one
only the hand held one,always left lying on the drawers by the window.
every day,the same...
i proceed to stand,motionless
in the centre of my room,my mind will go blank for a while
and then i'll come to,and suppose i should be doing something.
feeling like it should be something meaningful
it isn't,hopefully one day it will be
although i suppose thats up to me