JJ2 - Journal

Well, this journal will take me up to mid Sept by which point I will have been on this site for a whole year. I don't know whether I will ever find the time to go over all these journals. I am really surprised they've been so popular.

I have an amendment to make. As I only have a couple of pages left to finish proofreading FLR, I have to say that I now do not consider a first draft of mine to be complete until it has been proofread. That's my major discovery. I had chapters misnumbered and all sorts. Because I have notation stuff all over the place, there were things I forgot that I meant to include - typos naturally. It is good to know that you've written through a beginning, middle and have a definite end, but for me, this does not now qualify as a first draft after what I have recently trawled through (over 28k words now). And because of life in general it took me far longer than I thought. Thought I could read 5 chapters a day, but sometimes because of my mood and other stuff going on, I didn't get through one. I should have read through it, edits and all within a week but it took longer. So the next time I say 5 chapters per day max, I'll simply double the time I think it will take to be realistic. It is good to set a target to get it done though. I now have CP to finish writing.

I was also very distracted by all the sporting activities mind!
2.8.12

I wonder if people will be able to spot the Jamaicans in town today? Mind you, the amount of people claiming to be Jamaicans has swelled in recent days too. I wonder why???
5.8.12

PS - On Track JA!!! Ah wah??? Also Colin Jackson and Denise Lewis made me laugh - yesterday and today. Ah we ya suh!!! Nuff said.

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So I finally sent my first draft of FLR to my Reviewer and await the verdict. It finally went up to 29k for the first and I am dedicating it to Jamaica's 50th also because I finished the first draft proper today ie: proofreading with edits included which means anything after this is definitely second draft. I feel good about that, having markers too. I'll probably do three drafts so I already know that will be the minimum target.

Been watching loads of sports as you can tell. Somebody threw a bottle on the track because there were no Europeans in the 100m men's final I can only surmise but was tackled by a judo sportswoman. Only read about that today. This country is a multi-cultural one because of its history which was reflected in the opening ceremony. It should not have come as a surprise to anyone because it was always built over the past 7 years as the Cultural Olympiad and it has lived up to that. I'm not into some of the symbolism of course but to see people push the human body to its limit is something else. Back in the day women didn't have six packs!!! They train so hard these days. Team GB has done so well and JA has only just started its campaign on field and track so hang in there people - dem jus' a get started yeh! One Love Jamaica!!! Bless up! For a moment I had flashes of myself running around a track ... In my dreams of course! Laugh out loud why don'tcha.
6.8.12

1,2,3 - clean sweep, real neat an' sweet - yeh. HalleluYAH Jamaica. Well done team JA - bless up!!! Give thanks for health and strength. Yeh I heard couple man did branch off out fi nyam some food some place cos my relatives did see dem. But I know seh dem did bring dem chef so I was real surprise to hear dat. All that's left for me to say is I know they'll be seeing folks around town some and I wish them a safe, safe journey home when they leave. And we know that better must still come yeh!!!
11.8.12

While London was showcasing the Olympics, over the past week here there were two manhunts 1) over the murder of a missing child 2) the hunt for a suspect who murdered several others and threw grenades 3) a woman was murdered in a taxi. I would not say that these are every day occurrences in the capital but these incidents certainly took place while the focus of the sporting world was on London. Local churches were open on the Sabbath for people to pray for the murdered child.
12.8.12

I would however like to give thanks for keeping my family safe whilst visiting London from abroad and all the other visitors to these shores. Joe Public was also very helpful. I also still have family involved in keeping London safe through the Paralympics despite the heavy mob going back to barracks with their hardware.

I also need to remember a cyclist died and to find out the details of what happenend.

http://uk.news.yahoo.com/cyclist-dies-olympic-bus-crash-204523582.html

Apart from the athletes and spectators, images of the games I'll remember: the corgis rolling around, loved that; Zara talking about her horse - I'd give the horse an award; and Boris hanging in the air probably deserves a rosette! In case anyone thinks I don't have a sense of humour. I know you don't really think that. Just teasing.

I've been following the great cherry debate onsite. Guess I just have to be philosophical about the whole subjective thing and the amount of time some of the Eds may have available as well regardless of the fact that they are volunteers. I didn't come to the site because of cherries, I came to write and to receive feedback. I probably give more feedback than I receive but that's fine by me. I once got notice of a cherry for a piece that actually didn't appear but I didn't chase about it because 1) cherries are not my priority, 2) the piece was a very personal reflection. How this piece manages to attract a lot of hits even without the cherry I just marvel at because you can't always tell how a thing will read simply from its title. I have only once asked the editors to award a cherry for what I felt was an exceptional piece of work and probably indicated that two others deserved attention on merit from my perspective. That's not to say that I haven't read other pieces that I thought exceptional that didn't recieve cherries. Sometimes the comments those people get speak volumes cherries just couldn't. I tend not to read pieces simply because of flagged cherries, I read pieces based on what the writer has invited me to read that shows form. I have less time to read other people's work these days because of my own ongoing projects - currently have 6 skeleton chapters to write but thankful that at least the context and framework is there. Could easily be 50k plus words by end of first draft and have some reviewers lined up for that - nobody from the site, presently for that. Just letting you know I have been following the cherry thread.
13.8.12

So, I reckon I should be able to finish my first draft of CP before the end of this month so I can pass it on to my Reviewers. That's my goal because I have to have one. None of my Reviewers are close friends or family members. Does that surprise? I am sure writers on here know what I mean about that situation. Trust me, I get more feedback from you guys than from any of them. What I get is all the low down on what's happening to family worldwide and way back when! My local writing group members will probably review it because I started writing CP with them like I said. They're a good bunch and we've been hanging out together since 2009. We get down and nitty gritty with stuff. I like the contrast of being onsite and doing this with other writers face to face. It is just a different form of exchange. Both have enriched my sad, boring life. Ahhhhh ....
14.8.12

Chilly - ooh what was up with this Africa? Changes ... They've had snow in SA and other parts but???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGEB_gTl9hw&feature=related
16.8.12

Following the Gold Coast and the Slave Coast, Ghana has discovered offshore oil, a matter I cannot be thrilled about, Yah knows, following past examples off said coastline, including Nigeria discovering inland oil and the compounded disaster visited on populations and dying rivers in consequence. In a world where fossil fuel dependency is killing off flora and fauna worldwide this is nothing to be happy about in my estimation and given the way Africans have and are treated by multi-nationals over the course of hundreds of years - these scars barely even recovered to date. There's now also the unfortunate news of the South African platinum mining shootings.
18.8.12

Arriving is good ... For love is and is here and here is where and always has been where love is and always one ... with my love ...

Had a good little too and fro with ISD up in here today after having read up on Human Trafficking - something I have been following over the years. Really isn't good news any which way you look at it.

My Reviewer has got back to me on a chapter and I was so pleased to hear from said person. Really making me think about what editors have to trawl through!!! Ahhhhhh. Need to brush up on my French.

I'm home sick, my aunt wants me home and I am just getting the bug for being out and about having written tons lately. I NEED A BREAK!!! A little touches a move might help too but my doctor would probably say it ain't good for me either! Haaaaa, haa ... Heat can do such things to you ...
20.8.12

What rape has now become politically correct to talk about on prime time TV? Making a note of this today but I want to scream. I'll get back to you.

At the risk of sounding in any way tame on this subject, a definition of rape for me would be: a predominantly male compulsion to penetrate and or discharge into the orifice of another person against or without their receptive will or by any means of coercion. With all the socialising mannerisms humans have learnt over time, there are clearly matters to do with the act of rape which people do not want to face in modern societies. Men who see rape as some sort of "act of love" are living within self-gratifying delusions, often aided and abetted by society. I still have oodles of books I've collected over the years to read on the subject. By definition, this also takes in females in the main, being used as convenient commodity throughout history and I include arranged marriages in this. I best stop here.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-manchester-19330927

21.8.12

A little romp to make me feel better.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGF6bOi1NfA
22.8.12

Obviously at this juncture it doesn't even help to say we're none of us perfect because the consequences we all now face globally is way above serious and irreversible as the damage has been going on for centuries now. All those nuclear tests on land and in oceans as well. Please. No amount of money, gold or sex is going to make an impression. Not something we can buy ourselves out of. Anger? Pretty redundant emotion at this point, need to get quickly past that. It will take a shift in human consciousness from all this self-gratifying winner takes everything and everyone mentality hostage, come hell, oil, more unclean energy, wars and the elimination of populations in the way of capitalists, global Elites and their cronies. This is where we are - Yah knows. This is about more than just flesh - the missing variable in the equation. High stakes - we have finally arrived as foretold.

Before I forget and because of an interesting thread raised this week on "happiness" it brought to mind for me 2 books: Walter Rodney's "How Europe Underdeveloped Africa" - which also reflects on the peoples of the Americas and another book - "Development As Freedom" by Amartya Sen. In light of recent global developments and more deeper and widespread impending global famines in the making - some may find it illuminating to check these out at this crucial point in time.
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/40630.How_Europe_Un
The reviews speak for themselves.

Also this link for 2 reflections on Sen's book.
http://www.developmenteducationreview.com/issue8-focus1

Shalom people!!!
24.8.12

In the month of Ethanim - Abba bear witness
- back from Bristol:

http://www.empiremuseum.co.uk/

Can't get hold of these people - but others can be contacted yeh!!!
2.9.12

I guess, following someone's writing about their connection with social media and the news today of the sentencing in the Netherlands of a teenager who killed a girl on her own door-step and attacked her father - people he'd never met for comments left on a site. We have the unguarded twitter comments and trolling like stalking which lead to arrests and consequences. These extreme examples stand to show that as in real life one has to determine the true meaningful context in relation to self within cyberspace and indeed, manage those things that are within your own grasp to manage and take responsibility for and hopefully to do that in a way that is not going to damage you profoundly as a person.
4.9.12

Racism comes out of power and control, the rest is the trickle down effect of that to the masses. Any effect from the reverse though at times devastating for individuals, does not compare to the global political force of that power element. It is diverse and corrupting.

Been watching the Paralympics - extraordinary people. Ellie is just a dynamo in a small package.

I've most probably been in the UK for way too long now. My Aunt wants me home and perhaps it is coming to be that time.
6.9.12

Incredibly, I have just seen a beautiful white butterfly in my garden fluttering against the green of the trees. It reminds me of what it is to feel free in my heart, to understand and of course to forgive. Yahweh is the author of my life. I have no doubt. I'm just thankful I've been allowed to witness and to come to terms with my own journey. Coming to the end of these journals later this month, it also feels fitting.
The first record I ever bought, "Born a Woman" by Sandy Posey.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbBL8OuLapA
9.9.12

Hmm ... Biological love ... I guess there's that too in the mix and confusion of the mess of sexual hormones.

After writing NMR - I realise I probably have spent enough time in the UK. Learned a lot of things here, probably not what folks back home would have imagined but lessons in life nonetheless. My mother and sister are buried here but I really don't have to be. So my aunt is right, time for me to leave because maybe it is quite simply enough for this lifetime.

Plus my doc has just read me the riot act. I have been extremely naughty I admitted and knew it would all show up in my bloods which was inevitable. So it is back to being a drearily good little girlie on account of my health and if I am to travel to the tropics with all these diagnosed symptoms I should have to take all these extra meds on top of what I am already taking - just to go home. I am in med crisis. Somebody help me!
10.9.12

Congrats to Lewis and Murray on wins. Hope Talers have a good night later. I'm on the rise again. Smile ...
11.9.12

As someone who prayed for the scale of abuse of children to be revealed, the burning of a child in a South American rainforest and the sexual abuse and torture to death of children in Jersey and elsewhere and the calibre of the people involved in these crimes against humanity really is astounding. As a measure of how far we have come as humans and looking to the near future as things fragment and the most vulnerable are being used as fodder for the most able to keep their jollies coming and to satisfy their desires which they are not entitled to have at the expense of anyone else, desires which they persue other people for to death. These behaviours having been amongst us for thousands of years, unabated, only secreted.

Thinking about my own life and my own knowledge of how these people operate. Uncomfortable things we are only just starting to shed light on and to begin tackling. The lengths to which paedophiles go to abuse children is astounding. Some of them don't even have to impersonate police because in some cases they are in law enforcement. There have been a number of Belgian paedophile rings. I think about the atrocities meted out in the Belgian Congo by Leopold II and wonder where the legacies of the people who mete out such barbaric acts end. There's the UK officer who was caught on CCTV raping a woman on a car bonnet; women raped in police cells etc, one woman raped by two officers after flagging them down following being raped. Humanity ... How many people would choose to be treated in this way???
http://www.infowars.com/print/misc/belgian_sexring.htm
13.9.12

I've been here on ABC for a year now and this journal ends shortly. I've learnt far more than some imagine, mainly confirmation. Things beyond what folks take as reality as scientists would describe and as they try to come to terms with that which turns their understanding of the view of the sheer material world upside down and inside out. All in the game being played out. But it's not just material, never was.

It has been a stimulating journey here, for real ...
14.9.12

It was nice to be with Jamaicans celebrating their 50th and to reflect and hear them raise their voices and see them move.

So much churning about my island in the sun in my mind. If I follow my doctors I'll be more like a Brit going home when I came here a Jamaican but I have issues I need to address on that account. Just all seems so bizarre, particularly from the medical standpoint. Real crazy.
17.9.12

Emerging again ... Amen to that. I saw a green butterfly not too long ago. I just love seeing them. I can so feel the autumn changes now. My first cold is here so I need to take care of it. I need to get back to my original writing projects again as they've been neglected these past weeks. So here I go again ...
18.9.12

Yeshua, Melchesidek, Michael ... Amen, Amen ... the Equinox approaches ... YHWH's Will ... mankind, a kind of man ...

I have just watched this mini called "Winter Solstice" would you believe, all about how tragedy changed these people's lives. Well, yes I do like that sort of thing once in a while. And would you believe part of it takes place in Scotland. I still have to revisit to claim my tartan. I don't know when part two will be showing and hopefully I won't miss it. I'm rather bad at watching TV, not quite sure what comes on or when and I usually don't care either.
19.9.12

Proof ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDXDe_wtMeI
“Kiss Me Neck”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-LQ9F-b4dE&feature=related

Mutabaruka
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w1lQUfxpOgw&feature=related

Yeh ... me deh bout YAH!!!
20.9.12

ABCtales York is up and running and I can always look back and say "I was there at the Black Swan". Apart from TC and Scratch I didn't know anyone else but was acquainted with their work. MM was jet-lagged from Aus. It was warm and friendly. Hope PT has recovered from his gruelling drive! Apart from Talers, I met a few other people while there and found my way around pretty good. Loads of Chinese people around town. And OK - this Italian restaurateur sang me a song and danced for me - all to get me into his restaurant. It was packed, so he'd obviously done it for a few people! Did I hear someone ask then what happened??? None of your business!

My landlady probed my life story in 5 mins flat on arrival, basically around marriage. Apparently there is no excuse for not getting married even once; never marry your friend and there's plenty of time. Only it wasn't a real pig flying I posted earlier! Great place to stay though if anyone is visiting York again I'll give details. Plenty of excuses for me to visit again. Also found details of a book society I must pass on to York Talers.

I am rather tired at present still and this journal is also about to end. Perhaps this is a good enough place for that.

This clip is also memorable.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-19683687

Yhwh Shammah ...
23.9.12

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HydvceA1PAI

To Fade ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pS3ixmsQgCk&feature=related