Self realization

Worthlessness
That just best describes me

I just know..
I'm not worth a penny
Not even a glance
Not anything at all

All I deserve is nothing but
Rejection, resentment, remorse
Misery, Mutilation
Despair, disgust

What did the lord see in this creature
I often wondered
this worthless soul
who doesnt deserve happiness or respect
Not even love and joy
Maybe she didn't deserve life in the first place