I cry

Every time I shower, I cry,

The sobs muffled only by the boom, boom, boom,

of the music I play in the background,

my tears washed away by the water.

I cry for my knee, buckling under my own weight,

I cry for the loneliness I feel in my heart,

The water hits my head and I just cry,

No one but me knows why.

When I push that white button with the winking blue light, I am free.

Free from judgement, free from shame,

Just my tears and the water raining down on my scars.

I open pandoras box and let my emotions out.

When I’m finished with my body cleanse,

Both inside and out,

I push the illusive button once more

and pray the tears, like the water, stops.