Chapter 20 years and 9 months

Verse 1
Dope sick now that she ain't In my veins
Wanting back but I'm withdrawing from the rain
I swear everything I see has a double meaning
I could mask the pain but never stop the bleeding
Getting clean but I feel I'm growing dirty
No sleep from noon to the am of seven thirty
Everything moves fast when I look Into the past
The high's gone away yet I'm trying to make It last

Verse 2
Relentless chills keep me up at night
Inner demons preparing for the fight
I don't mind because I control where I go
Drowning sorrow so I reap what I sow
No more need to feel the chemicals Inside
Strapped down tight, more than ready for the ride
My dark passenger now dwells In fear
I can stand strong while looking in the mirror

Verse 3
(need to write one)

Chorus
I am trying to cleanse my soul
If not shadow will swallow me whole
I'm cutting down this dead end noose
Betrayal of myself I will refuse