Blaming Myself

The story begins with the stars,
When I was at the top with shining glime,
Where I stood upon the circumstances,
Nothing greater than my secret chime..

I never cared for anybody out,
Taking life the way I want,
Not bothering of others feel,
Just taking the way I want the deal..

But the destiny outplayed me,
Coz with the height comes the fall,
My attitude & arrogance took me down,
Once who always loved never came upon,
And even the dead spoke what’s the foul..

I know I did wrong & I’m paying for it,
Under the bed lie me with lonely breath,
No one stood beside me now,
To give me support when I’m so low so down..

The real faces behind the masks,
Leaving upon me their cursy marks,
Shuttering my joy,
Cutting my laughter,
Now I’m left alone at the time of disaster..

A lonely wave in the desert of solicitude,
Taking me alone in the dearth of sorrow,
People I betrayed taking their revenge,
Leaving me lamenting on my filthy deeds..

The ones I disrespected now laugh upon me,
Seeing my conditions pity on my feeds,
I wish I would have looked in me,
To find the flaw so that I could be,
Back in stars again delighting,
But I’m just left with thunders & lightening..

Wishing for an angel to come from heaven,
Waving her wand to put be back on cloud seven,
So that I could taste my dish,
Wish one day god would fulfill my small wish..

- Deepanker Saxena