We are all in this together

Metamorphosis

Change from night to day
Tossing to and throw feelings of unmoulded clay
Just don't want to stay
Just don't want to hang around
Just want to hear
The sound of your voice
It's your choice
What do you want to steal?
What is not real?
You make me breathe freely
You wash away the blues
Then you make me go away
I float with feathers so light
Just to come back another night
In between feeling lonely and sad
You say-Too bad
Pil 2000

Sugar-glazed glass teardrops

Blonde, beautiful
a sight for sore eyes
and 2 kicks in the side
violence and verbal furocity
breasts with
little self-esteem
pregnant babies
with mothers at their breast
feeding on screams
smashing
minds
through the air
smashing against the walls
spintering the sugar-glazed
window panes
smashing the pain
with control
control
never letting go
between frustration
and flow
Unfulfilled?
But satisfied
Pure bliss- a fantasy
of pure fullfilment
impossibly pure,
imperfect.
pil okt 2004

>break..>

Don't wait to bet on the morrow
Because the joy of today will fill
The gloom of yesterdays sorrow

Keeping the level of excertion high
To let good moral be your will
Counts much more in the eye
Of sincerity forever and still

You need not beg ,steal or borrow
To bet on the morrow

Pil Sept. 2002

RoseMary
I'm gonna miss you
For the rest of my life
The way you scented
And centered my life
My project is peace
So give it your rave
And you'll
Be able to save
Peace peace peace

Pil august 2003

Just dreaming that we could share the half of the world
And that the other half
is

what we would explore

pil Juli-2003

For BENJAMIN

I'm not dissatisfied, ain't afraid , don't feel I have anything to prove
You ought to know by now that you are one on whom to groove
I've known you all your life and we have been through a lot of strife
You have always been true
Now you gonna be true to you
You know where to find me if it pleases
And if you understand my happiness in knowing
You are true to you
The best you can do for Mamma
Is being true to you

for for dear eldest son
Mor Maj- 2003

>break>

Don't tell me what you are dreaming about
Makes me wanna shout
And it's not what I'm about
Your innocence is just a matter of coincidence
Because the shadows just scare me far away
And make me want to hide in fear and worry
You never believed
I just hope you do some day
Never believed in being relieved
Not even trying to be strong
Just leading me on to not believing
Doing me all wrong
I was just passing your time
And you wasted so much of mine
Not believing
In right or wrong
God knows it almost took too long
But miracuously it made me strong
And I got to believe that there had to be something better than wrong
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141.

nam myoho Renge kyo
Believe
and you will achieve
believe you deserve
sooner than soon
I'll just stay with belief
It is my relief

Maj 2003
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142.
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I get up in the morning sleepy head
You're not here
Feel a trifle dead in my head and toes
So what to do
Apart from think about you
Don't want to get caught up in the morning show
Doesn't tell me much of what I want to know
Feeling useless once again
Time just goes
Its early
And I'm washing my clothes-
That's just how it goes
Just feel like sitting down and crying
But that ain't gonna get me nowhere
Missing you makes me feel blue
Then I think of all the mightiness pushing me through

no complaints
just need you right beside me even when you have to go for a while
Sometimes it is pretty uncertain what the day will bring
Hope keeps me going
And belief keeps me growing

Maj 2003
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softness makes me feel the way I want to
The way you make me feel you want softness too

Sweet kisses, caressing my soul
Pure rapture
Yes love means everything
But it doesn't always mean happiness
If you can't be with the one you love
And you are all alone
You may feel blue
Then on the other hand I'm with you
too

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Just sitting around listening to love songs and trying to feel special

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for my sons

Sometimes you ask yourself
What's it all about
I'll tell you sweethearts what I think
I think it is the writing on the wall
And the clouds in the sky all white and fluffy
The songs you sing

And the tears you cry

And the struggle that is your will
And the dreams come true

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Turning to the page where fantasy stays real
just climbed to the top of Kilimanjaro
With great ease
But never imagined that anyone could make me do it
and there you came ,kissed me to such a sweet taste of pride
magnificent,impressive,beautiful and rather reassuring

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No more no less
Open my heart
I won't even guess
The angels are singing
No more no less
The angels are flying
I'm trying
I know that I love you
Just trying to keep my thoughts straight
And wipe away the hate
Because it is not what I feel
I am on the road to what's real
If not for you I would still be trying
Ain't got nothing to hide
Nobody but myself has hurt my pride
And I ain't didn't mean noone no pain
Just livin' again
And again
And again
Every second of the day
Every place I choose to stay
Every particular way
No matter what they say

Pil feb. 2003

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for the comfort she
Had longed for
She was unable to ask
For more

So she beamed a smile

Sept. 2002

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I could drink a bottle of wine
With mineral water on the side
And call myself an artist of the fine arts
If I knew what it meant
And who they art
Maybe

feb. 2003

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I'll not suffer forever
While in the arms
Of an angel you lie
And while there still are rainbows in the sky

Pil Feb. 2003
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You taught me to be polite
I liked the change
But I do admit
It is the best craziness And I'll tell you
its true
Being crazy
Is being alive with you

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This numbness in my fingertips
Does not interfer with
The beating of my heart
The touch of yours on
My lips
Sends me further than start

When two poetic spirits meet
They move to opposite sides
Of the street
Makes love a defeat
The success of yesterday
Can not be repeated today

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You take me to the border
And I tread on a mine
I am shattered into a billion bits
I guess I am just stardust
But this is where it begins
All that is love and lust
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I'll cut the flame
Take the point
I'll win this game
In this lousy joint
Heaven is just a step away
I'm going there to stay

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I bow before the very white
Which now is turning
To colour
The white
And the colour enchain me
They are hot dirt
And fearsomely fine
The colours come from everywhere
They are Okay
Let me live today!

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Revelation

Heavy as a crow in flight
As humid mist in the bight
As the buffaloes winter-coat
Light as a leaf afloat
On the deep-green basin's surface
As a blue skys' enlightening purpose
Is the divinity of souls in a crowd
Some meek,most proud

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Take my name
And
Stub it out
Like a cigar
Crush it
Who am I?

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you didn't think my love was pure enough
real life and true love
You most certainly have found
If only you could open
Your eyes and look around

Pil Feb. 2003
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Instead I gotta follow my fate

To die
And start living again
Dying
leaving all the sorrow,
regrets and pain
Dying from the past
Its all there
Gotta leave it fast
Thinking
It just can't last
Gotta keep on dying from the past
I ain't disappointed, I ain't blue
Just think a lot about you
And that's also what I want to

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No more no less
Open my heart
I won't even guess
The angels are singing
No more no less
The angels are flying
I'm trying too
I know that I love you
Just trying to keep my thoughts straight
And wipe away the hate
Because it is not what I feel
I am on the road to what's real
If not for you I would still be trying
Ain't got nothing to hide
Nobody but myself has hurt my pride
And I ain't didn't mean noone no pain
Just livin' again
And again
And again
Every second of the day
Every place I choose to stay
Every particular way
No matter what they say

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What's all this attention
was not my intention
Maybe still my own invention
Don't mind basking in the sunlight
Had pretty much
Of the shade
I know what's down
That's why God made
A crying clown
I know a lot of what's up
So it's quite certain to be found
Yeah Yeah Yeah

Pil Feb.2003
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Subject: the blue hue of the blue skies

Standing your ground

everyday there is a new sky
nothing like the day before
nor the day after
even a little blade of grass
will be different on the morrow
beneath the dirt
artesian floods flow
the dirt is clearground
to stand on
with the soles of your
feet
and the feats of your soul
are just as possible
as the difference between
sanity and flying like an hawkangel
like a babe in its cradle
the globe rocks around its axis
giving motion to all
nothing nor noone is without the sway
don't be afraid little baby
Mother Earth is also yours today
its the fundament beneath your feet
to balance the sway
Pil September 2004

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If I didn't believe in surfacing
The good times wouldn't be as
Good as they are
So
What I want is of little importance
What I am bidden is what keeps me truckin'
I'll take the bad with the good
And not close my eyes to reality
Living in a bubble that inevitably bursts
Is too dramatic
So I'll go the line
With the uppers and downs
Surfacing is the best part of it
If I didn't believe in surfacing
The good times wouldn't be as good as they are
Pil Maj 2004

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It seemed so easy for you to say Goodbye
I even knew that you hadn't really given it a try
I don't quite know where or how I went wrong
I just know that you wanted me to be strong
you wanted me to be someone else than I am
of that I am aware
if my face was aged and my body
a little out of shape
and my life a bit of a shamble
you did consider that, I take.
You were disappointed-I was too
my happiness you wanted to be a part of you
without any to give in return
you tried but couldn't reach me-
It was for your touch I did yearn
So saying Goodbye isn't easy for me
because you took my happiness
and left so easily
I don't know what you are going to do with it
now we are apart
can't you send it back to me
so I don't feel you broke my heart
I think you threw it away long ago
when you wanted me to be a figment of your imagination
and in real life I was deeper than you could go
I hope I find some more happiness to give the ones for whom I care
you are neither here nor there
Pil Lenau 2004.10.16

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Love and Birth

this is more than a simple word
it is a feeling of abundancy
of more than imagination can create
Maybe it is my soul
finally come alive
It makes me happy
even with this knot inside
Pil 14.10.2004

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I'm not listening
I do not wish to hear
I am staying right here
I'm staying right
close to what's near
Pil April 2004

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Superficial

Is superfluous
And I do not comprehend
Your methods
Of superficiality
Neither your
Mediocrity
Neither do you-
Comprehend.
So
It doesn't matter that much
Does it?
Don't necessarily comprehend
But
Accept the way it is
C'est la Vie!

Pil September 2004

My journey is long
My accomplishments not too strong
Lady Luck I do not see with my eyes
Because of so very many lies
Pil Nov. 2004

Leben der Liebe

If I were the weaker one
If I were the meeker one
Surely in your arms I would come undone

Pil Nov. 2004

Don't bow your head
You have nothing to shame
Life and love is your game
On your shoulders shall rest no blame
And no reason to extinguish the flame
Pil Nov. 2004

Walking down streets so unfamiliar
Never been here before
Darkness all about me
Won't someone tell me where I am going?
What life's got in store?
When the dawn will break and give me a ray of sunshine?
Because I am walking away,leaving all behind
I ain't afraid
Gotta start something new
'cause all the old stuff
ended in curfew
It must have been God's purpose
Won't someone show me the light?
'cause I can't go on
walking here in the dead of night
Pil Nov. 2004

My name is Fire
I am the all mighty
Worship me as you do
The firesun from the sky
I am untouchable
Yet I touch you
So that you laugh and cry
I am the power of life and death
There are none above nor below
I am the all mighty
My power is in the hands of mankind
Nuture me as a friend and beloved
As a foe I am ruthless
My rage is uncontrollable

Pil Oktober 2004