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My horse runs tomorrow for the first time. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I bought him as a two year old and he's been in training down in Devon. He's in a juvenille hurdle at Ffos las in Wales. I'll be there of course, wouldn't miss it for the world. 12.45 and he's called Rio De Sivola. Fingers crossed.

I am wondering- when you are poor like I am-is it easier to get angry at others? I'm not so sure of that. But I am angry and sad at the moment. Had a row with my son and now he won't speak to me. We have been struggling all month with Vet bills,dentist bills, his phone bill and insurance. He didn't realize that he was eligible for benefits and therefore I have been donating to his livelihood. That's okay with me but I do think he should get the...

I can't put my mind to much else than this terrible tragedy. These sweet little school children- so innocent. Their families left with the loss. Their friends marked by the experience living on, scarred for life, traumatised, losing their best friends. My own troubles seem small in comparison. These are heavy days. Accumulating sorrow. Really makes you believe that the world is mad.

Christmas is a very family minded time of year. For most. If you have a family. If you are in the Christmas spirit. I don't feel it so strongly these days. I'm going to make it as christmassy as I can for my son. Although he doesn't live with me I know he loves this time of year. We can't afford much but we can afford some Christmas cheer. Before he was born I celebrated Christmas with my father and Step-Mother. They both had full-time jobs but...

They do happen. Some say you have to work to obtain and reach a goal. Not my goal or your goal- a goal. I stopped working for anything about 2 years ago. I suffered a severe depression which knocked me off my feet and things have just not been the same since. Now, being off my feet so much of the time, I find my energy level extremely low. I'm waiting for a miracle. To get my aching feet back on firm ground. To get my mojo working. I'm full of...

Didn't buy any cloves for my tooth- it doesn't hurt as long as I don't chew anything -so it's yoghurt and soup and buttermilk, coffee and tea and I can dunk a biscuit in my tea- love that! I bought spikes for my boots the other day. Put them on today and I strode through the snow masses and definitely felt on top. Banks- big banks- I don't understand the first thing about their transactions but the big banks are under fire at the moment...

Yesterday it snowed all day- the day before- that's Sunday we had a snowstorm. So everything is white and sloshy and brown and grey. The S-train net was down for a couple of hours-in peak hour-poor commuters. I haven't been outside for days- oh a short trip to the corner market. It's too slippery- I panic. I walk so slowly nowadays and with all the snow it's slower than snail's pace. I am not in a hurry. Funny thing is when I get to the...

Birds of a feather flock together. This is mostly true though as far as I know birds of prey don't flock together.This is a reflection. I reflect. I think. I ponder. If you are so inclined your victim is not a communal offering. It is someone you pick out for yourself. Though the victim may be a group- you, the individual, pick it-the group- out to suit/match your invention.Being a victim means being subject to abuse. You are the prey- food for...

I've decided I need to win some money. Soo I am going to start gambling- on a small scale- once a week perhaps- once every 10 days when I go to town.£5 a go and I might win a million, maybe more. One million ought to do it for a while- a long while. I wonder whether I will get addicted?

Having dabbled a bit in politics and then stepping off this treadmill I am comforted by the fact that our Prime Minister's ratings are going up- she can't beat the right yet but she's getting there. This guy from the far right Simon Emil A- let's just call him that -doesn't like poor people. I don't mind because he is not going to get much of a say in parliament. He'll be allowed , by the government, to vote for things/bills so the Gov. can get...