This is the story of a guy who has a very&;#8230;active
imagination. You know fantasizing etc. All his childhood he would say,
when I grow up, this will happen etc. By his late teens, he was also
making daily predictions, by the end of the week predictions etc. As it
always turned out, he was disappointed and he began to sink slowly into
a depressive state because nothing ever works for him etc. So he
decided to stop fantasizing. Easily said, not done.
Fine, he'll will just make his fantasies more realistic. He would
place himself into conversations with people he knew well enough to
predict what they would say. This way, he would carry the conversation
is his own intended direction. Again, it never worked in real
life.
Another thing. Any girls he liked, he would fantasize about them
creating the perfect them which constantly led to disappointment in his
girlfriends. That is until he met her, (him and her, it goes so well
together). He never even thought of her, fantasized that is. She just
popped right out and turned out to be better than any other "perfect
girl" from the past. He fell in love with her. He placed the two of
them in various situations (possibilities) to "practice" talking to
her. It never fucking worked. No, out of frustration with the whole god
damn mess he's stuck in, he can't even write a decent piece without
referring to her. She has him writing bullshit love stories and placing
them under "romantic" when in reality he is essentially a non-serious
writer (comedy that is to say). Anything serious he ever wrote to this
point has been totally anti-romantic, totally anti-humanity in general.
She has him (a naturally reclusive character) going to party and social
gatherings, etc. In hopes of spending more time with her. (This is
good, he thinks to himself, She' seeing me relate to people. She sees
that they like me. She sees that they laugh at my jokes and slap my
hands when I extend then high in the air. Everything will be fine,
etc.)