I can't write.
That's it.
I'm done.
I refuse to make a fool out of myself longer than I have to. This will be the last time you read anything that my hands are capable of producing, from what my mind is capable of creating; the last time your eyes will lay upon the vomit of my soul. For eternity, they told me to write. Write my thoughts — good, bad, even confusing. Write down what my heart couldn't scream to the heavens — because a mouth was absent — or what my own mouth couldn't release to those who choose to read. “Express yourself,” they said...the psychiatrists said it, too. Pills told me the same thing, and so did my noose. They tried to make me better, I guess; stay by my side, at least. Though, they haunted my subconscious. And that can't be good.
They told me to wait, “But don't give it too much thought”. They told me to dream, “But don't dream a dream too vast, now”. They told me to stay, not run. But I only have one thing to say to them, and to those of you who choose to read:
I can't write.
That's it.
I'm done.
Comments
magicdarer | July 9, 2012 - 00:24
A powerful, sad, and clearly honest poem. It's stark, and points to struggles undergone and underway. I admire its honesty, integrity and youthful punchiness. I like the rhyme at the end, which made me loop back to the start, giving the poem a circular feel. Well done. Actually this reminds me of the most powerful word in the poem: noose. Circular noose. Nice work indeed.
JessicaA | July 10, 2012 - 00:27
Thank you so much magic. I didn't even mean to give this poem a circular feel, haha. But I'm glad you noticed that. I don't even care if this piece isn't cherry-picked, it's rather close to me. Thanks again for the comment, vastly appreciated. :)
beaste | July 16, 2012 - 11:22
yow...this isnt quite wat i expected. I sor the title deamons i was expecting a cool slightly gothic theme. Listen who the hell told u u couldn't wtite? caz im gonna kick their butt!
evryone has deamons they need to express...i mean jesus hav u seen sum of the things i write! the fact u came up with this peice of work proves u can write caz beleive me its not always easy to express urself in words.
=-)
beaste | July 16, 2012 - 11:23
and if its any help, at least u got one cherrypicked lolz =-D
JessicaA | July 18, 2012 - 00:51
Lol, thank you beaste. :) Your comments made me smile; they made my day. You're a great writer yourself.