(screamed) I only wanted one thing/but I can't say what that was/I lost it in my silence
(shouted) And now it's slowly drowning me
(screamed) I crucify my feelings/I excise all my demons/and still I can't remember
If there isn't a point/why the fuck am I here/if I'm just meant to die/why the fuck should I care/I tear down all the walls/I break all the taboos/but please don't ask me why/I don't have a fucking clue
(breakdown)
(distorted scream) Dear God
(distortion off) Help me
I'm lost in a state of/somatic suicide/I don't know if I can/find a way to survive
(breakdown ends)
I only wanted one thing/but now it's gone for good/I just wish that I could know
(shouted) What I am fucking missing
(screamed) I rip the hair from my head/and beat myself with my fists/and still I can't remember
If there isn't a point/why the fuck am I here/if I'm just meant to die/why the fuck should I care/I tear down all the walls/I break all the taboos/but please don't ask me why/I don't have a fucking clue
And now it's too late to turn back (2x, screamed first, shouted second)
(synth strings, electronic beat, clean guitar solo)
(spoken over strings and beat) I am too far gone to have a hope of coming back. But I don't know why I would.
(instruments out, screamed) 'Cause I can't remember what I want
(instruments back in)
If there isn't a point/why the fuck am I here/if I'm just meant to die/why the fuck should I care/I tear down all the walls/I break all the taboos/but please don't ask me why/I don't have a fucking clue (2x)
And now it's too late to turn back (4x)