Catch Up

Hi ABCtales, hope everyone is doing ok- I have been missing you but need to focus on writing in another way as I have been hitting too many blocks. I think I just need to write for only me again, and not in any way be aware of any sort of potential audience- does that make sense? I think I am inhibiting myself somehow. It's like I know I can write good and have got some really positive feedback on here, but that kind of has been a double edged sword because then I'm aware I'm trying to keep that up and when it isn't always there I feel like I'm failing and then I end up not writing anything at all! It's all perverse, self inflicted and stupid but that's kind of where I'm at. I just need to get to know myself again, on my own for a bit and then see if I/anyone likes what I come up with then. I'm going to be taking my laptop around with me and writing whenever something grabs me and then work on it later until I am satisfied. I think I feel more inspired walking around rather than trying to write inside. I will be posting again when I'm ready as I love this site and it has helped me so much, just right now I need to try a new tactic.

I also wanted to ask if anyone here has read Behind the Scenes at the Museum by Kate Atkinson. Re read it last week and has to be one of my favourite books- what super writing! Highly recommended.

Anyway, keep writing, and keep positive! I read the mental illness post and was very interested and moved by some of the comments. I struggle with depression and a tough phobia which developed from attempting an overdose and it can really get heavy but I like to believe I'm learning something from the shittier aspects of life, and that possibly one day I might finally convey it in my writing- building and adding to some of the pieces I am proud of!

All the best to you all X