Stories, short and long

Too much sunlight could kill the Day. Dear Diary, He said he loved me while he finished off the rest of the remaining gin. I said “I love you too honey but I just can’t smile.” Which was a game we played when we were in high school together. We had just got back from the café. I offered a coffee and a sandwich, chicken and watercress while he simply ordered coffee. We didn’t talk much but he talked to me when we were driving home after just paying the bill. “So are you going into work this week” he said as if after an hour he had finally found something to say. “I told you how would it be healthy for the baby in that Smokey atmosphere” “So I take it when I go out and have a drink you won’t want to come,” he said calmly. He was trying to hurt me. I hated him for this “No I’ll just stay at home. That’s fine,” I said knowing it wasn’t. We got home and he automatically opened the gin poured out two glasses but I said no so he drank both. We had nothing to do so he starting talking about the old couple sitting at the back of the restaurant. “They were sitting there complaining about everything. She was the worse in her day maybe she was Queen Bee, but I was thinking you ain’t no Queen Bee anymore” “I didn’t notice,” I said calmly “do you know them” I asked “No” he said. The he said he loved me. I had morning sickness later I just felt really ill later on. So when I felt sick I knew that Aaron would out with David and Chris who, I heard bought his wife Nicole. “I felt lonely that night so I watched the Tv feeling confused. I again had to grasp the arm of the sofa as I stood up having to grab my breath. It’s now 11:10 and I am going to bed for the last half hour I thought about us as parents, Adam and me, getting to be as old as that couple in the cafe. Dear Diary It was Alice’s birthday today. She didn’t talk much today. She went on about our fifth anniversary a bit which is next week but when we went out to the club. She didn’t talk. I wanted to leave her and go off with David and Chris but not the bitch Nicole who tags along. Alice said go on but I felt bad because she had been alone almost all this month. I saw her diary today. It was locked. I remember when I called her a bitch and she didn’t reply. She must have written it in her diary. Last week I finished off the gin and so I had to go out to the shop to buy for the coming months. * The next morning I went fishing partly because it was good weather and because Alice and I were shouting. She shouted at me “I was a sick bastard incapable of love.” I said, “I have always been faithful. It’s you that doesn’t care about this relationship.” I started to hate the baby. Fishing wasn’t great but it was something to do. David and Chris came. We played poker and talked about women. David said he didn’t want to get married to “some broad” while Chris said that Nicole could be the biggest bitch at times. We drank so more. * I returned late that night and as I quietly got into bed I saw Alice look at me. She was crying. I didn’t know whether to look at her or not, pretend I acknowledge but I could see her pain. “ I needed you” she said quietly “I love you but sometimes you can be the biggest bastard in this stupid damn place” “Oh Christ” I said. “You wanna hear yourself shouting. What kind of a dame are you not a very clever one more like a fucking place who shouts all day.” “I’m in pain” she said “I’m…I’m….I’m sorry” she said bursting into tears “I didn’t mean to say that.” “I was pissed so I walked out and started writing this entry. It’s 2:30 in the morning and Alice is now six months pregnant. Dear Diary My hands were on the wheel of our car. I saw in his eyes that he wanted to hit me. I wasn’t sure whether or not that was the time to go out on the open road. Aaron was at work. He never told me about work but when he’s drunk all he talks about is drinking and fucking. My guess is that he no longer loves me. I write this while next to the wheel of the car. There is little petrol in the car so Aaron couldn’t take it. I could risk taking the petrol or I could talk to somebody. I feel hot. I am tired. My eyes are raw. My bump is causing me pain. The summer heat is making me feel fatigued. My remember my mum saying too much sunlight could spoil the day. What happened?