The Keeper (...and you lost me).

This is a small collective of what is going through my mind at the moment. Not really toyed with or altered. Just spat down on virgin paper as thoughts come out. Very bad punctuation and possible spelling errors... Maybe they add to the way my head is working?
xo.

*memories destined to be blurred*.

it's busy again and i'm all alone my friend. passing glances fallen glasses casting watchful eyes over blurry eyed dirty minds. trousers betwixt waist and wasted speech slurred

"rub bleach into my skin".

wash me scrub me rub bleach into my skin till i bleed those lies you fed me have rotted my insides don't hug me nor touch me even your pictures make. me. feel. dirty. my heart is broken

*being in love was never easy*

so they say that it's easier so much easier to say "i hate you" over "i miss you" so they say but being in love was never easy and never a game. xxx.

*Riddled with Hurt and Distrust*.

Watching as you become less of a person than you once were. Hating that i won't not sure, if it's can't get involved. I want to help fix you if i can. Unsure.

ah number thirteen

ah number thirteen unlucky for some unlucky for one this angel will brush down it's wings spread it's dreams breathe in a deep sigh fly. sweet number thirteen etched upon my skin

bear and becky and me.

more ink... and why not lets record this life paint our temples graffiti for our souls but the masses can't see hidden shades creating pictures stills moments caught and designs for living

Braille scars

the scars on the inside are made of braille. you can touch and feel but you cannot see and these scars yes, the ones on the outside i wear long sleeves and high heels

cheap english writing whore...

NO NO NO GET OUT OF MY DREAMS YOU CHEAP ENGLISH WRITING WHORE! you ruined my past with lies and deceit try and filter into my future rub it in some more GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE.

conversation taste sour.

shut up! just shut the fuck up. my nerves are frayed can't deal with this shit can't fix this stupid head of mine can't cope with the emptiness leave me alone vacate this space i hold dear.

sour taste of your pre-emptive hurt.

You never know what you've got till you lost it you never knew what you had and you lost me bitter and sharp like battery acid as it ate through my heart ignorance may be bliss

lost friendship. failed love.

i wish upon another star but i know it won't hold dear lost friendship failed love the days go by like pages of a shakespeare sonnet and a glass of the fine stuff over and over again.

nothing will go wrong

blink. and i'm gone one is not sure weather to apologise. to go. hold tight i'll be fine nothing will go wrong.

I think you spoke to my eyes?

Not comfortable Not happy too many people stupid questions and i don't want conversation i think you spoke to my eyes for you have moved. Still not comfortable Still not happy
Cherry

I wish i had never met you...

not sometimes but every fucking day every hour every minute and every deep breath i inhale i wish i had never ever met you and then i could sleep i could count sheep

my porcelain queen

this horrible, horrible dream that i'm living i can't wake up from this vile, disgusting shit that has happened may not be my fault but i have to take the blame i have to take the blame.

Feed me whiskey

Feed me whiskey by the bottle cocaine by the gram feed me some more buffer this hurt somehow feed me more and more and more i don't need a ticket for this wagon just a henry sized score

Scared (part 1)....

Cross legs.... Sat here. All alone. With the squelch of squeaky clean heels. All knowing glances walk by. Mumbled chatter and loose phone rings, disturb my thought. I'm trying to stay calm,

Scared (part 2)....

get me chocolate get me cake please or a fizzy drink i feel faint too much preparation for bad news specialists and nurses i can't stop thinking about you empty yet hurt the separation

The last and the first

The bed is warm but not with you not a haven for love and dreams anymore it's too monstrous even for me but when we were together we filled it with smiles and tea my darling i cry before z's

just a flagrant disregard of the english language

poor grammar and sloppy punctuation weave through my lines. like the commotion in my head. and, i am not sure weather i write with a lack of knowledge/ education or verse

Lets not start again!

Let's not start again start afresh like linen washed. Let's not pause time with kisses from heaven soft, tender and oh so divine let's not! Let's deal with life, love and longingness

tribal drum beats....

I'm back home. by the stones, at one with mother nature the soul of the universe tribal drum beats and love primal haircuts flashlights and torch rays keep brushing over me

unfinished wishes....

that night dry crisp bitterness strangles the grass don't look down keep pushing shooting stars fizz by one, two, three, four, five as feet pound over and over

rub bleach into my skin.

wash me scrub me rub bleach into my skin till i bleed those lies you fed me have rotted my insides don't hug me nor touch me don't look at me even your pictures make. me. feel. dirty.

if blood were time...

if blood were time my heart would be fine i would be lying. losing pints every day each and every friend would get the rhetoric i'd tell them that i'm ok. truth of the matter is

worlds conquered.

i wish oh god i wish... i wish i never fell in love with you. i stand tall proud, and un-nerved i stand free buildings demolished babylon rejuvenated worlds conquered.

something to erase

i'd like something to erase all the happiness you caused me all the nirvana we caused us so that you become someone a faceless entity that doesn't hurt me doesn't burn me anymore

tears are not superglue...

if my eyes are the windows to my soul then my handwriting is the fingerprints of my heart and if i could scream how much i hate you because i'm still in love with you

narcassist.

one was never good enough for you chipped teeth stating honest words yet the narcissist wouldn't hear poetic truths and eyes filled with ecstasy and heaven whilst holding hands