rub bleach into my skin.

wash me
scrub me
rub bleach into my skin
till i bleed
those lies you fed me
have rotted my insides
don't hug me
nor touch me
don't look at me
even your pictures
make. me. feel. dirty.
my heart is broken
my soul can't breathe
why did you get off
on playing me?
drown me
suffocate me
that's how i feel
a notch upon your bedpost
as i walk out of your life
i wish i never knew
you existed
leeching of others happiness
trying to emulate their lives