Chocolate Kisses

ugly, heavyset curtains
block the light from passing cars
the kettle boils as the TV lights the room
i lay naked
refreshed
clean
on thick cotton sheets
the radiator pushes 30 degrees as i dream
of chocolate kisses.

my fattening stomach offends my ego
half steamed mirror half hides flaccid cock
tight hairy balls itch with frustration
a twitch
and

nothing

more.

too tired or bored or both or more to masturbate
the mind fixates on heavy eyes
mirrored they stare back at me

alone