This True Test of Self

To be together as one with her, like this

would surely quench, my now desires

but then what of tomorrows dreams

if they fly on the wings of today’s fears...

I can not say, nor can I tell her honestly

how much I love her; oh how I feel the need to walk away

She seeks security within her expectations

though seldom greatness lands, I need to walk away, while I still can...

And here in my blue, I am alone again

escapee from every possibility of being loved

my inability to commit unconditionally, remains intact

She sought the security of forever, yesterday

but then great lovers unafraid of love, can

Oh how my fears of failing yet again, simply destroyed her plans

and I, I just didn’t know how to let myself go, in this true test of self

so in the only colour that I know, I just walked away, like a man!

* Words by Rob Pearldiver *

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