If I Was To Leave This World

I always wondered

What will happen

If I was to leave this world.

 

Will I finally escape those grey clouds

That are forever looming over

Letting their tears fall from the sky

And instead be above them, floating

Where no cloud can reach that high

Where the sun forever shines

Among hues of Lilac and Ruby

Like a sunrise of awe.

Like a sunset of beauty.

 

And when the sun goes for another day

Will I see the Moon?

In all its glory

As I glide on the edge of the solar system

Surrounded by dying stars

In their thousands

So close I could touch them,

Filling my night time sky

 

I will lose myself

In the astral realm

Within the heart-stopping beauty.

What would be my pain and sorrow

That forever haunts my soul and body

Will be forever gone,

Along with the rest of my anguish and sadness.

 

Though I may leave many others

Mournful, and in shock

Maybe never able to forgive me

for what I've done to myself.

But, I can live with that

It's was never like I worried about that anyway.

 

So I give my unrelenting sympathy

To those who grieve on my behalf

But please, don't be so sad.

It's better here in this new place

Drifting peacefully on a lone cloud

Into the Amber sun

And alongside with the twinkling stars

While a small tear trickles

Down a cheek

Of relief?

Or sadness?

Who knows.

 

Well, that's what I think

But for now, I'm still here

On this same earth, spinning beneath my feet

With the rain cloud forever looming over

Wondering

What will happen

If I left this world

Tonight.