I am sorry

I am sorry

 

I am sorry for your broken heart

For the abandonment and betrayal

The ugly you had to live

that was never your fault

 

 

I am sorry for your once delicate soul

That turned cold in retaliation

As means of protection

To fight off all feeling

 

I am sorry her bite was deep

And left quite the wound

Kept scars that can’t be healed

And loneliness as your friend

 

I am sorry it blinds you

That it keeps you up at night

Hogs the whole bed

And steals all the covers

 

I am sorry you live in fear

And must perform the balancing act

Between closeness and distance

Never ending and exhausting

 

I am sorry you are doomed

That you must rely on the innocent

To get your nightly fix

And destroy them in the process

 

I am sorry I couldn’t understand

Why things were the way they were

And I could not see

That you were also healing

 

At one time I only felt sorry for me

But then I realized

That it happened to you too

And I was a hypocrite

 

Forgive me

For I am lost

Just as lost

As you