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It’s only been a minute but I need my next fix, 

I have everything at home, happiness- tonnes to spare. 

A coffee in the morning, two to three teas during the day. 

I quit smoking, used to be a ten a day-up to thirty if I’m drinking. 

That’s another thing that’s stopped the past year; the bi-weekly piss-up. Now it’s just a beer or whisky every now and then. 

It’s used to be energy drinks; has your day really started without one?

Energy drinks and fizzy soda- Dr Pepper, a few cans a day. 

I still masturbate sometimes, not as much as before

...that really is a pitiful addiction- a few seconds of ecstasy followed by regret and self loathing. 

Social media though... never goes away.

A black hole into the abyss (abysmal). 

A crevasse filled with hours of scrolling- what even am I looking at?

I’m happy as I am, I don’t need the extra stimulation (+20 new conversations)... pitiful. 

But I can’t stop checking every minute. 

Hours have passed, what have I even been doing? Meh I can stop...

......same again tomorrow. 

It’s a poison, a sickness, first-world addiction. 

It’s a wall between me and the real world (happiness) and all I’ve built at home

“Put your phone down”

It’s scary to think how much I could miss with my eyes glued to the screen.