This is me part 3

Ten came it was the start of more trauma in my life it was a Saturday just like any other Saturday well so I thought dad came to wake me up mum had asked him to I was really fas t asleep the firs time I stirred from my sleep with this nice feeling I didnt know what it was but it felt nice I thought I was dreaming the next day it happened again I didnt take much notice as the week went on but the next weekend as I stirred from my sleep on the Saturday I felt something touching me I woke up and sat up quickly my dad was there but he ha d moved away when it happened the next day I realised it was my dad doing it :(((( this carried on for two years I dont know why I couldnt tell anyone he never told me not to but I didnt when mum went to work I used to cry in my room everyday I was already withdrawn this made me even wors e mum never seen to notice I existed neve r mind that I was miserable school was a nightmare I just didnt fit in with anyone I neve r learnt anything my school report s were always ba d no one ever questionend me about them when I was 1 2 years old I was upstair s ironing mmum wa s down stairs with one of my brothers and dad came up stairs to have a bath I was listening to music whilst doing the ironing as I always did the next thing I turned around and he was stood there naked wont go into details but he raped me I didnt move for ages after well it seemed like age s then I rushed down stairs to be in the room with mum and my brother for some reason I still didnt say anything just writing this is impacting me emotionally .....