Damage limitation

Damage limitation
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With a lover, but without another it’s to the other I always drift.
Though no dramatic gesture, or even permission of God can heal a two year rift.
A contract of marriage, that no man can put asunder,
What less a lovelorn boy, with his selfish romantic blunders.
I can see a future, I’m told it’s a brightly painted path.
And I greet it with indifference, and the secretion of my embittered wrath.
Opportunities, a first home, nor a job for life,
Can drag my attention from this lesser man’s new wife.
I have new achievement, a life’s dream that has ascended,
It would have filled my life with joy, had my life not already ended.
Other distractions I have are many, a mass of technological leisure.
Nothing seems beyond my gain, nothing but the only real pleasure.
Plenty is here to entertain me, I can have all else my own way.
Plenty to stimulate me, a ton of erotica to wank the days away.
My new lover is sweet, stunning and I think she can love me.
She tells me I have everything, why are you not happy?
Was I really happy with the other?
Does it matter I didn’t want her when she was in my grasp
Was she really the only comfortable lover?
Does it matter that my desire dies when it’s another’s flesh I clasp?
The future holds everything, everything but nothing,
But I’ll still boast about my successes, keep on with the bluffing.
To live with out a spark, I feel like a lion without its mane,
So I wallow in this misery because there is always a spark in pain.
Rose tinted glasses I’m probably looking through.
But my lost lover, I’m looking through them only to see you.
To live apart now, our lives are just imitation.
Until I die, I must strive to apply damage limitation.

By daron316