Butterfly

I was living life monotonously
Crawling forward day by day
Until suddenly, I changed

I hated everything
Formed a cocoon of sadness and self loathing
It grew thicker
The space inside became smaller
I was choking
Struggling to breathe
Struggling to live

Amazingly one day
I had had enough
Enough of the choking
Enough of the struggle of living

My resolve caused a splinter
The splinter became a gap
The gap became a void
My cocoon splintered

Yet I was grey and hollow
My energy gone
A shadow of who I was once was
No longer filled with colour
And yet I was determined 
And stubbornly carried on

It's taken time to erase the grey
Slowly but surely 
Year after year
Atom by atom 
Yet... Despite my efforts
Sometimes A new cocoon looms
But I manage to force it away

I'm not as grey as I once was
But the greyness is like an ink stain
And I hold out hope that maybe... 
Maybe one day I will be something brighter

I never want to be encased again
And although I cant remember how I used to be
I hope I've grown into something better
Or at the very least
I'm getting there