Welcome

Welcome to my garbage dump
Psychotic thoughts like broken springs torn through a mattress
I bleed but only as the movies bleed only crying when the script says to cry
Welcome - this is me.
Wishes and regrets beat down by the hard hand of rationalization
I did the best I could - ever the martyr
Lay back and float, eyes closed, in my red wine
Soak like a sponge, wallow in bathtub bubbles of unhappiness
Unfulfilled like the ache in my stomach
Why can't we just be happy?
Your cold and muted responses bounce off me like a squash ball in a court of optimism, anger, passion
But the light flickers and the impermeable walls are tired...
Much easier to take in the blows - to keel over with the punches
Injected with your apathy, poisoned with your need to escape
My soul writhes - blinded
In the evening colored reality undresses and her bleak skeleton tucks itself into bed
Will we overcome?