A beautiful pain.

Just other day I said goodbye to you. It seems like time never passed us by.
It's sad when the guy you know becomes the guy you knew and how we able to spend for hours and now we can only see each other as friends? I'm exploding!

Goodbye to all the beautiful things we hold so dear to us.  Goodbye to all the passionate kisses, all the soft touches, to the good feeling when your fingers across my skin. To all the beautiful things you whispered to me. Your smell and the warmth of your body and Goodbye all the exciting moment we had. How deep we used to look at each other's eyes tenderly and now it's over.

It's really over and I don't know why things happen as they do with only you.
How I wish that I could turn back the time when we first met. From the moment you walked into my life and from that moment I dare to look into your eyes, I should have enjoyed instead of felt bad all the time and stopped to find all bad excuses to end this relationship.

We started secretly and we ended it in  secret, under cover and out of sight. I feel so alone, can't talk to anyone. I tried to make it easy for you but it's getting even worse to me. I have to erase all the memories and leave all these behind. I hope someday you can find a way to understand. What I am doing this is only for you. Deep in my heart, I know that I'm not the friend you're needing. Your life can be wonderful and colorful without me. The only thing I can do is just to let you go.

Pls wake me up from this nightmare. I wonder how's your life, what's it like there? Is it how you want it to be? when you feel depressed, do you think about me? Does it hurt when you breathe too? Cause it does when I do...