teenage angst (revised)

its times like these where i can swear ill break out
but not in acne or not in pimples or not in zits and blackheads but
in revolution or rebellion and ill say hey im a communist
or maybe ill sit in the back seat with those guys when im not colorblind
or maybe even wear all red or all blue and go to school saying
hey theres no such thing as gangster either
or maybe ill be so full of revenge and reprisal and
refuse to go to camp refuse to do the work
not brush my teeth everytime i eat and i wont even floss and id consume lip gloss
not because it was tasty but because it said do not consume
and just cause i dont give a shit i wont even crap anymore and leave my colon to overflow
just as god overflowed the world in genesis seven to save good people to send to heaven
and one day you can expect me not to capitalize and not punctualize
and maybe you can even watch me s p a c e o u t
or maybeneverevenusespacesatallbecauseallyoureallydoiskeepmerestrictedandnotgivemethespaceineed
and maybe i wont even use line breaks because everyone else wants a break
a vacation a rest a luxury because they cant keep up with whats going down
but there at the end of town, youll see me
im not waking up in the morning im not sleeping at night but i wont be dead
or an insomniac but id be in so manaically in bed
and watch me because i wont even flush the toilet because im constipated of lipgloss of all kinds
and im tired of waiting til nine just to call my boy and tell him
hey baby i miss you
and be interrupted by my own worst enemy where ill say
hey this is an a and b conversation so c your way out before d and e f you up g
so just cause of that i wont even call on nights and weekends
cause these rules they make my week end
and these rules they make my life end
but the purpose of life is to live as that is the verb of the noun
and this life is profound
and i can hear the negativity
eating me up