Judge Because You Couldent Even Try Being In My Shoes

all the pain all the lies try being in my shoes for the past six years try crying my tears before you judge try this trudge try to deal with what I have lose who I have not be able to erase my past mistakes try to work for nothing and have no one who understands try to have nothing that can fix it try not getting to be eleven,twelve,thirteen,fourteen or fifteen like me have the freedom of a four year old and the responsibility of someone who is forty with nothing for it just to survive try being judged and looked down upon for trying to cope and feel some hope try having everyone you trust leave you in the dust try struggling through school all year and rarely having a weekend you can enjoy try having a summer of summer school,fall outs with the few friends you rarely get to see, family dying, having to leave to move far away and start over again, going up a nursing home everyday as your paps dies, being an unpaid maid never getting any privacy and having to keep calm as they say to have a place to stay or sitting at a hospital where family died day in and day out until your thrown out I've had all this and more what have you had? and soon i'll be grown up my only family left will die and I'll have to push through work this time for enough money to have a place to stay finally earning a wage but having to scrape and scratch to pay the bills probably start once again popping the pills having no real thrills but go ahead and judge say I'm a drama queen say I'm emo say I'm shooting up which I'm not whatever I've had enough