Knives in my heart

Song by me (would be heavy or death metal if actual song except for the Here we go again, I guess I’m too far gone and won’t return anytime soon but insanity is much better than pure sadness part which would be soft rock with a normal singing voice)

Falling apart with knives in my heart; emotionally lifelessly nodding my head to the music beats, shaking and forcing a smile as the thoughts race, numb numb numb numbness caving in trying to feel something, where’d my feelings go? My souls rattling, help me, help me please, the fire of life is burning my eyes, im screaming on the inside but no one can hear me except my insaniiityyyyyy, it’s great really, now I’m feeling something better than sadness, I’m feeling dark and deep insanniityyyy, not feeling the emptyness that f*cking kills me on the inside, yeaaauuhhhh feel me live, better run cuz, the first person who talks smack better take it the f*ck back cuz its all setting innnnn, I’m more than a bit dim but, that don’t mean I don’t have strong emotions and thoughts within, remember your siiinnns, remember it all, remember it
Falling apart with kniiiivvvess with kniiivvesss with knivvvvesss in my heart, my souls rattling, you just can’t see, at midniiiiggghhhhttt when you’re asleep I’m sooo awaaakkkeee so f*cking awaaakkkeeee, the thoughts don’t go awayyy, so fast I can barely keep upp, don’t try to understand meeee, im f*cking haunted by memoriiiesss, insanniiiityyyyy, its not like anyone would try anyway and I don’t have the meds I neeed, but, maybe its better off this way, life is more interesting, painfuuuuullll but maybe its better off this way, maybe its better offfffff,Falling apart with knives in my heart; emotionally lifelessly nodding my head to the music beats
Here we go again, I guess I’m too far gone and won’t return anytime soon but insanity is much better than pure sadness
Better ooffffff, is it f*cking better off? Is it f*cking better off? Kniiiivvvesss in my heart, motha f*ckin knives, in my hearrrrttt, insaaannnittyyy inside of me