Never..

never got to live because i've been surrounded by death and dying
never got to be young because i've had to take care of the old
never got to get much out of life because i've always had to give most of mine up
always been a rule breaker and always been a rebel but now i must hold back my pain and anger and force on plastic smiles and make jokes in which i give empty giggles
trying to lose weight but have no healthy food so i must eat junk food in nibbles
never been the girl who made sense
had to grow up very fast and so i act immature when possibble but you would too if you had to endure
atleast the world won't come as a shock to me as it will many
never got the chance to be a party girl because im different then the rest but maybe it is for the best
im supposed to go to a rave soon but i fear arrest
never understood things easy because i have learning disorders
i doubt i'll ever be able to get everything off my chest
never got to forgive myself for words said in anger
never had whatever i've needed to be not a danger to myself or others
never really got to have a blast most of my summers have been utter bummers
never been normal in the mind really; i just used to hide it
never had anything that really filled me with pride
never got to recover from my pain inside one after another just died
never got to be so young the only pain i had was scraped knees
never got over so many things that were said and done
never can make up for the years i missed no matter what because of it i will always be pissed