was it just a waking dream?

poem:
dark dark boy hey there i see you again as my heart does a churn and my head does a spin you smile at me and i feel your words sinking in my head "do it do it now you'll never be alone or scared to lose me and you'll never be touched like that again you'll finally win dont listen to what you believe sweetie you've lost your sanity just listen carefully listen to me take a knife and stick it in do it do it now then i'll take you far away and tell you my name" maybe your not a delusion, maybe your not in my head, maybe id never be alone if i were dead, maybe you'll be my inspiration to escape, maybe you'll be what saves me, are u not just in my head? would i be truly better off dead? im tired, i need to sleep but i know you'll visit my dreams the words you speak sound so sweet, so convincing, instigation ,situation what if your only my imagination i can see your dark figure and big smile in my head and imagine you right over there convincing me id be better off dead, id never be alone, and my name would look better carved into stone but then i see the shadow in the corner seeming to want to come after me and for a split second i think i see out of the corner of my eye bloody chained hands clawing through the walls i gotta calm down gotta breathe its all gone now but was it only a waking dream or could all that imagery be true and really help me