Went Away

I'm sorry I hurt you I'm sorry I made you cry I thought I'd have you forever I guess in my mind I'm sorry I lied I'm sorry I screamed I hate you cuz if I could take it all back and just hold you I'd treat you much better I know you'll never see this sad little letter and I'll never feel any better I'm sorry I lied I've tried to do better but, I've just done worse and hurt others but I know you hurt the most but why'd you have to go away without warning with barely a goodbye tonight I hold a bottle of pills and for minutes have a cried popping two or three at a time I finally stopped and sleep I crave I've given a slight numbing to my throbbing pain but really what have I gained I still remember the day you went away why coulden't you just stay my apology will you never hear and as I feel dizzy I wipe away another tear I wish I could hold you dear the pills are setting in better say good bye to then