Dearest Daddy

Daddy dearest:17.04.13

You can never repair
The damage you have done
Scarred for life
You made them your number one.

Don't call me your little girl
She is no where to be found
You left her years ago back in Perth,
Consider her 6ft in the ground.

Saying I love you
Doesn't make it true
Only your actions
Prove how worthy I am to you

You hold me Responsible
I don't know why
All I know is
Your good at making me cry

To be fair
Not all of it was bad
But I wish you made me happy
Instead I'm forever sad

They say girls marry men like their  fathers
Not me.
I'd rather be alone cause that will never be my happily ever after

Money doesn't make me happy
you don't understand that.
No Diamonds and pearls
All this little girl wanted
Was to be part of her daddy's world

A mirror I am of you
But you are ashamed.
Never cease to call me names
No matter how much weight I lost or gained

I tried so hard
So you'd be proud
So you wouldn't get in a plane
Travel around
Nothing I did
Ever made a change
Guess you finally found that perfect family
You so desperately craved.

I'm proud of who I am today
I'm lucky I came out alive
That's not to say most days I didn't think of suicide

I hope you are happy
That you deserve
You have done your job
And pop in heaven is proud
He has heard

But I hope you are a better father for 5 & 6
No child should ever feel like this
I can't speak for the others
But with me ,
our relationship can never be fixed
It's tainted
Never to be.