Sad Love Letters

Dear _____________,
I feel that it was only yesterday
That I gazed into your eyes
And told you that I loved you.
Today I have finally come to know
That those eyes have just disappeared

Dear _____________,
Living is just mere existence for me.
I can’t breathe. Tears fill my eyes every time I remember you
And presently the problem is that I remember you a lot.

Many people are obsessed with pain.
I too use to be amongst them.
Believing that when one bravely goes through pain,
It is heroic.
But now I pity those believers
Because I have finally realized,
I was dead wrong

I miss those moments of excitement.
Every time you use to call me,
Every time you use to kiss me,
Every time you use to touch me
I miss those moments
When we use to secretly make out in your father’s garage.

It is easy to find beauty,
It is easy to find brains.
But it is rare to find a combination of both.
I found it in you
But now everything is blurred
And I can’t find it anymore.

People say be careful with guys
Because they are usually jerks.
But it was my destiny to be one of the girls
Who falls for a jerk.
You are jerk but yet I can’t stop loving you.
I wish there was a way that this could work
But now everything is broken beyond repair.

Time changes people.
Had we not been dragged along by our friends to that useless party,
We would never have fallen in love.
I wouldn’t have had to go through this pain.
But then I wouldn’t have had the best time of my life.

I don’t want anything.
I just want the pain to end.
If I were given three wishes,
I’d make the pain disappear.
I’d stop us from breaking us.
I’d wish you to be there for me again.
Alas genies aren’t real.
But damn, I wish this weren’t real too.

It is so real. Misery, sorrow, pain and regrets
Are all a part of me.
I wish to just make it end.
I wish to just forget.

It is time to move on.
Time cannot be reversed but hopefully it can heal these terrible wounds.
What has happened has happened.
Regrets are all that remain.

My friend came over yesterday.
He tried helping me get over you.
He said, “Move along cause that is what life is for”.
He was right. I have to get over you.

Goodbye my love, I shall never forget you.
I shall never forget those moments when we were most connected.

Farewell my love,
There shall always be a part of me that is yours.

By Saad,
13th June 2008