The Watcher.

He watched them through the coffee shop window.Envy and anger carousing through his veins.Not even trying to hide his anger.It was more than evident through his piercing hate filled eyes,the tightly held hands.Perhaps he should not have followed,but he had to know.For his own satisfaction.
                                                                                The passing traffic all a blur,as he watched them intently.The more they laughed together the more the chemical concoction in his stomach began to engage.The butterflies released,the rapid,gruff shallow breathing,the heartbeat growing quicker,harder,louder in his chest.The more they moved physically closer together,the more he wanted to run from his viewing position,and attack them violently.His jaw beginning to clench tightly.The waitress behind the counter eyed him with fear,from her position.She knew from experience when to steer clear of customers and when to approach.She decided to wait until he was gone,to clear tables in that area of the cafe.                                      
                                    He glanced down at the most recent tattoo on his forearm,what a waste was his conclusion.’Together Forever’,there two names enshrined inside a heart,shot through with an arrow.I dont think so.Perhaps another tattoo may appear soon,how about ,’Dead Soon’,or ‘Betrayed and Devastated’,and an open coffin,and a knife dripping with blood.Yeah,that would seem so much more suitable,and honest.The piped music of the coffee shop,barely breaking his consciousness today.The banging and clanking of other customers cups,and plates,there inane chatter,hardly irritating him today,as they usually would have done.His mind was in a calculating revengeful mode.Inflicting human pain on another was where his mind was at.Psychological,physical pain.The desire to scar,to burn,to injure another.The way he was burning,and scared,wounded from the betrayal,and treachery unfolding before him.
                                   Loyalty,honesty,being open.How they had spoken,and agreed of the importance of these characteristics in a lover.He was so happy to have found another who shared his beliefs and values.After quite a long time, admitting his true sexuality to himself.This was his first time being with another man.He had tried long and hard to hide it,with alcohol,illicit drugs,one night stands with willing,drunken loose women.But they meant little to him,although he had become fond of some of these women,but deep down,he knew what he was.
                  He had given his heart,his soul,and it was taken greedily by that older and much more experienced man,he of the religious order.The man he had turned to for spiritual guidance to sooth his troubled mind.Trying to understand his thoughts,feelings,the strange sexual desires he had fantasised about,in the privacy of his own mind.In the darkness of the night,which had at times sickened and disgusted him.He had turned to the Church,where else would a good Catholic boy turn to.
                                         Suicide was off the agenda.He wanted revenge,to hurt,to destroy another.He briefly considered embracing on an affair of his own,but concluded that his partner,now soon to be ex partner,seemed too hardened and callous to be affected to much degree by such an action.He considered reporting the priest to the religious hierarchy,or to the Police.He was,after all still considered a child in the eyes of the law.Or to the newspapers.But events such as these were no longer the scandalous incidents they once were.He was aware at times how dismissive,and disbelieving the Police were of such events.How uncaring,and disinterested that God’s,so called representatives on earth could be.
                    He reached into his pocket searching for them.Relieved to find he still had them,he rubbed the plastic packet containing the small white tablets between his fingers.So glad now he had not disposed of them.At least they would not be wasted.He would watch with pleasure and interest as they took effect on his partner later that evening.That non smoking,teetotaller,that fitness freak. 

                                                      When his mind and body had being overtaken by the effects of the illicit tablets,well he was  anybody’s really.To do with as they wanted……....