Game of Opposites

I want to let him go

   and keep him. 

I need him

  but I don’t.

Some days I feel good with him there,

  other times I wish he weren’t.

Having him around I'm secure and safe

  yet vulnerable and in harm’s way.

I’m close

  yet so far away.

Upside down and in and out he turns me. (now I understand that song)

It is

  but it isn’t.

I’m in a conundrum,

  but I’m clear of what I know.

The writing is on the wall,

  but the words are foreign.

When will this roller coaster ever end?

I don’t know,

  yet I do.

It’s a game of Opposites.