Anxious Bones

By Nopride4531

Sun, 13 Jul 2014
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I'm so scared of failure

But what defines that word?

Does a grade on an assignment 

Determine what you are worth?

 

I can't breathe when scores are in.

I'm anxious to the core.

And it tripped the OCD in me and

I won't sleep tonight

 

Because I'm too scared. 

I'm scared of the future 

And the unknown.

And I'm forced to be mature.

I don't want to dwell on this.

I don't want to be afraid of this.

I just want to the chance to be a kid.

It's all just in my head

But to me it's like it's life or death.

I don't want to be this way anymore.  

 

Medication seems to help 

But I sometimes still feel down.

And the way that people look at me

As if they're surprised I'm still around.

 

I don't want their sympathy but they

Think I will erupt.

And they all keep asking questions and will

Not shut the fuck up

 

And I'm too scared.  

Certificate 15
Non-fiction
Rant

Comments

Submitted by hudsonmoon on

Good rant here. Writing's always a good way to blow off steam about the ills going on in this world. Like insensitive clods who wouldn't know a true 'worth' if it bit them in the ass. Always about the status quo and fitting in. Well, sometimes we square pegs don't want to fit where they tell us to fit. I don't know you personally, so I won't pretend to have an answer to your dilemma. Just know that there are plenty of folks out there who understand.  I've had self-worth problems in my life, as well. I'm probably a bit older than you and I took me a long time to realize how much I was truly worth. Don't let the idiots get in your head. You're as good as you think you are. Don't let them tell you different..

Rich