Then and Now

I want what seems impossible to stop challenging me so,
I would like to stop worrying and just let it go.
There was a time when I achieved with ease,
Now I have to battle for even whats in reach.
Once upon a time I was not fearful and burdened,
I triumphed I won, those days are now blurring.
Time paces on, I cant keep up,
Im up Im down, Im moving but stuck.
It is a cycle, a pattern, the same daily feelings,
I meditate imagine and pray for healing.
Its not all so bad, its a neat place to be,
I can look back ahead and around, all views of me.
One goal, two goal, three goal, four,
I seek meaning and purpose, it used to be more.
More money, more shoes, more stories to brag,
Now Im settled, appreciative, with less than I had.
The momentum seems slow, but somehow it's fast,
last week, last month, this second just past.