Life Is A Mess

Right now,

My life is a mess.

All I seem to do is cause stress.

Stress for myself and others around me,

So right now I'm crying  that many tears, I can't even see.

I never dreamed my life would be like this.

Every opportunity arisen, I have missed.

Yet made every wrong turning as it seems,

Now I'm stuck with a heart filled with hatred and a mind full of crushed dreams.

I don't even have the strength to believe in my own capability,

Yet I can encourage those that mean the most to me,

advise them on what they should do,

but when it comes to my own life,

I don't have a clue.

I need a job and a stable home to call my own,

I need a hobby to fill the hole my heart holds.

I need to go out and have some fun,

Make memories,

As when we are old and gone,

they are all we have to look back on.