What Did I Do?

To go from how we was to this is heartbreaking,

I can't even think of you without my bottom lip shaking,

I can't send you a text without contemplating,

I can't bare the thought of our relationship completely ending.

Clearly you mean more to me than I do to you,

But to be cut out of your life with no explanation is something I never thought you would do,

How could you think those things I supposedly said were true?

When it comes to how I feel about you, you clearly have no clue.

I've been emotionally numb since November 13th,

A day I'll never forget.

It's not someone's birthday or an anniversary of death,

It's the day we came to logger heads.

I spent a week crying so much, even in the shower.

I related to every tune played and checked my phone every hour.

The second week I started to feel angry and wanted to lash out,

But then I realised, if I was to kick off,

What would I be shouting about?

Every day I sat and thought through every conversation I've ever had,

Whom it was with, was your name mentioned and did I say something that could be twisted into something bad?

But then I realised there was no point in any of this,

The only one who could answer my questions,

was the one who started all of it.