Trying to Understand Life.

Trying to understand life.
I have never really attempted to write a book before, well one time in elementary school, back when I had some crazy imagination and a huge sense of creativity…but that is beside the point. Anyway, getting back on topic, this is called trying to understand life. First of all, my mind wanders on a ridiculous basis so if I am in the middle of something and go off on a tangent (sort of like right now) just try and stay with the story of trying to understand life. Right so life is crazy, yes, we have all heard that from time to time, but I mean if you just stop in the middle of your day and take it all in, life is truly, crazy. I have been doing a lot of random YouTube watching and reading different life theories and things like that, but I think the weirdest thing is that no one truly knows what is going on. I mean sure science and what not can prove things that make sense to our little worlds but I’m talking the big questions, why are we here, where did we come from, how did this all happen; you know the good juicy stuff. And guess what, no one actually knows. That right there just blows my mind. I don’t understand humans either. I mean think about this, if you have ever been in a relationship you talk a lot to your significant other and pretty much know everything about their lives but then you break up and you don’t even talk to them. So you went from knowing what they were doing pretty much every day, to nothing, humans are weird. One other of many things that I don’t understand is how certain things are deemed “bad” or “immoral”. For an example, the word “fuck”, why is that bad? I mean it is just a word that can possibly have a bad connotation with it when used as “fuck you” but there are so many words that can have a bad connotation to it too that aren’t considered as bad like “lard”, You can call someone a lard but it won’t get bleeped out on the radio, and in my opinion people take more offense these days in being called fat that being told to “fuck off”, yet fuck is the bad word that can’t be said on TV or the radio, not the more offensive one. Oh, so possibly one of the biggest mind fucks that I have been thinking off lately is how fake power is. I mean just to start it off with a quick example, let’s say you are in a group of 10 people, you and these 10 people are at a crosswalk that is being controlled by a police officer, he says "wait" to all of you, and expects that everyone is going to respect his position of power, instead everyone walks, what can he do? He isn’t going to shoot everyone, or write everyone up tickets, no everyone will walk on by rejecting his position of power and move on with their lives. This concept almost frightens me with the idea of using this methodology on a bigger scale. Like let’s say the us government or the president or the rich, I mean no one is above anyone, the government makes laws, we follow them because they are the laws and that’s it. We don’t reject their position of power maybe because we are intimidated or scared, possibly. But I think it is because of how we were raised differently in different cultures and what not. No one is on the same page of their upbringing and things they learn in these fucking education systems and what not. So my theory on why we don’t just do what we want and make our world more utopian is because people just aren’t on the same page and everyone’s utopians would be different and a movement to reject these positions of power would be too hard to organize because of people’s different upbringings and personalities. Which leads me to my next topic, perspective. 

So ya, I wrote this out of the blue and thought that it would be an interesting refreshing style to not organize the writing in anyway really and just fill it with thoughts. It is just a sample, I want to hear what people think about this and see if anyone is open minded or what not about this way.