It's so hard to let go of you

i cant say why
but it's so hard.
i'm trying and trying and trying
and its still hard
hard as nails stuck in time
unwilling to let go of the wood.

you come inside of me
like a spirit
like a soul
through the top of my head
and make me blank.

you were my soul
you were my spirit, now
it's time to let you go
as only i can
after so many years.

you've taught me so much
yet you've swallowed a big part of my life
swallowed me whole like a whale

now let go of me and let me live
i am not your other house
and i forgive you your sins
i will no longer judge you
so let go of me let go of you.