Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

Psalm 23 is my favorite piece of poetic, spiritual writing. Whenever I feel that I've lost inner peace, I return to it. My decision to return to Protestantism, the religion of my youth was a very difficult one. As a youth, church was a place I went to to look at cute Korean girls. As a youth, I cannot say that I liked church. Church was filled with adult faces with very serious looks. There was something disturbing about the amount of seriousness with which South Koreans took themselves. It's not different from the seriousness of T.S. Eliot's Alfred Prufrock. It doesn't matter whether he eats a peach or not. There are no overwhelming questions.

"The Lord is my shephard." The Lord takes care of me, watches over me, prunes things I do not need. The Lord will kill the wolf that tries to eat me. The Lord will kill the lion that tries to eat me. The Lord makes me like a sheep, sprawling on the green grass and loafing in life, loving life. Not a care in the world for the Lord takes care of everything.

"I shall not want." I have everything I need. Spiritual inner peace of knowing that God is at the center of the world. I need not think of people who fall short of the standards of God. I need not be disturbed by others. I can plan and cultivate my own garden.

"He makes me lie down in verdant pastures." Life is plentiful and giving. AS the leaves green and vegetation greens, so greens my environment. I seek verdant pastures not negative influences.

"He leads me beside the still waters." He leads me to my death. The waters represent death. It is an objective correlative of death. The waters are still. Time is still.

"He restoreth my soul." My soul has been lost. It's been lost because I hate people. I have plotted to lay people low and make them feel like I feel when they are around me, always putting me down and making me feel bad. People are stupid. They do it their way which brings the same result no matter how circuitous and meaningful the intention may have been. He restoreth my soul by telling me simple words and simple truths and how to apply them.

"He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake." He leads me to righteousness while all of humanity is heading toward mutual destruction. I am unique. To be righteous is to be unique. God is unique. I was made in his image. I am a sheep, but I can roar like a tiger. Really loud and obnoxious and tasteless people surround me. I roar musically and they don't get my sense of humor so I tell really stupid jokes and they find it funny.

"Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil." There is no evil. Evil is but the shadow of our dreams. There is private evil but no general evil. We are essentially struggling with our projections, our dreams, and our inner evil. Evil is what makes us turn a good intention into hell for other people. Evil is what makes us laugh after a victory in which we used all the dirty tricks in the book. In the dark, our fears come out and our desires too. No one else can see them. Christ destroyed Satan, the general evil. We are constantly struggling with private evil and guilt.

"for thou art with me. thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me." I accept God's corrections and punishments, but I do not accept human judgement. Human judgement is too subjective and either too harsh or too soft. God alone is just and the I and Thou relationship between God and me has been changed to an I and thou relationship. Not not not Da.

"Thou prepareth a table before me in the presence of mine enemies." God brings all the SOB's who have thought that they can win against me to the table of justice and made them reflect on their actions. It makes me see how I was right. There is tons of Orientalism, adolescentizing of Asians, and just bullying of anyone who threatens the white order among the liberals who are mostly white. They say one thing and do another. Let God show them how they live in their brains and do not see the light of everyday objects and people. 

"thou anointest my head with oil." God shows me that I am in the line of David and Christ through God's adoption of Protestantism.

"my cup runneth over." The cup has fallen and the wine is leaking out. There's been an argument with the enemies.

"Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever." I will quit drinking. I will walk with the Lord and learn his wisdom. I will trust in the Lord. I will be as wise as the serpent and as clear as a lightning strike.