Rachel Eckermann 8

Gabriel knew that it was the people who went through the greatest traumas who made the best mediums. His emotions were completely frozen by repetition compulsion. He remembered the guy who related Freud's theory of repetition compulsion to Circe, the Greek Witch who would cut off the penises of men and make them serve her. Why men were attracted to such women confounded him. Only Odysseus could resist... with the help of a Goddess. But he wasn't worried about that now. He wanted to reinvent himself. Man is condemned to be free and man could reinvent himself because of that freedom. He froze his body and soul and assumed the posture of a mummified body. He opened his eyes and he saw through the eyes of Claudia. How beautiful she was... like the woman in Blade Runner. He saw through her eyes. The darkness was photographically beautiful. Then he closed his eyes. He imagined himself to be Claudia once again. How humble she was. Then he began to hear the World of the Buddha and the Dalai Lama. He saw an Indian Priestess cast into a sacred Temple where the Goddess and the God meet in the Third Eye, behind the Third eye. She was stuck inside, crying out for Justice. He imagined helping her get out of the Temple. He saw the Buddhists in Japan, black Buddhists who were Fascists and asked them to turn the swastika by using Kundalini Yoga and the key... he was a volcano inside but anger was lulled. What the fuck did these Westerners want? If you Westernized too much, they wanted to kill you. At the same time, they were constantly complaining that Asians were unassimilatable minorities. What was the correct excluded middle? Even Jews blocked your path up the pecking order. They were all guarding the status quo which no one really liked. But Reality could be alot worse. If you thought about it, Proust was very anti-Semitic... he hated the vulgar, classless Marxist Jew but then, he did not admire Swann either who really is a default homosexual or even a bisexual of sorts... there was no bisexuality back then. What did people really expect? What did they want? So he was dead. Or was he simply dead to emotion? He turned his head to the right and he saw a fire lighting up in Robert Trousseau's house and Rachel (Trisha) being completely helpless. A fire really did light up in Robert Trousseau's house but Vivien put it out. He was the medium of the Hindu Goddess Kali now and he wished that Rachel's, Claire's, and Deborah's head would be cut off and they all felt it immediately. They massaged their throats concurrently. "Is this Voodoo?" Claire asked. "No. It's Gabriel. Just don't belive." Gabriel was now a medium of an Egyptian Priestess and he sprouted wings and flew off to heaven. He was neither dead nor undead.