Unseen beauty.

Dark are the days in the place where i dwell, amongst past hates and long forgotten lusts, a place beyond time and space, where memories of long gone fears never let me rest, where no-one dares to come even to satisfy their morbid curiosity. Swinging and swaying, dancing in the light of numerous candles are the shadows that torment me with guilt of things i have never done. Walk with me once more upon the blackened ground, where nothing grows any longer and no living thing will dare step onto after all the suffering i cased it. Here and there still you can see the ruins left from the long gone days of my fame. Like jagged broken bones they stick out of charred soil, reminding me that nothing is forever. Come one, come all...
Banners hang limply in the still air thick with the stench of decay and ash, making it unbearable to breathe, filling your lungs to the brim until you feel like they are about to burst, and yet you refuse to exhale, wishing to hold on to the putrid fumes simply because they too are a part of me, part of past i built for you and had destroyed only because such was your whim. Times when i made you the Queen of my carnival of horrors, my freak sideshow circus, where i was the main attraction. I'm curious, what did you see me as? 
Oh, come now, do not look so surprised by the question, i suspect you knew for a while, even if only somewhere deep down, that i am not just another being drifting through your life. You must have after all this time. Every last person who looked at me saw me as something different. I am the elephant man, i am the girl with a beak, half-human and half-turtle, bearded lady, dog-faced child raised by wild animals, hungrily tearing at a raw piece of flesh with my teeth, blood and saliva running down my chin, making my fur glisten in the light of torches. Each and every one of those who saw me recoiled in disgust, or fear, and the only thing that kept them from running away were the thick iron bars of my cage that divided us. You were the first in centuries who just stood there, showing no sign of revoltion, something i have never seen before lurking in your dark eyes. Something i mistook for pity at first. Perhaps that is why you were the only one i never wanted near me, could not bring myself to meet your stare for longer that mere seconds at a time. You saw past my appearances, were not, in fact, aware of them, but looked my bare soul, my most intimate thoughts and dreams. You looked at me with love.
I still remember the feeling of my nails sinking deep into your flesh and how soft your throat was when my teeth tore at it, blood pouring out with each heart beat, your warm lips parting for the kiss when they met mine as i breathed the life back into you. The look of love never left your eyes, you only held me closer as i made you into what you are today. My eternal lover, my immortal half. Timeless beauty untouched even by the decaying flesh, glowing with unearthly light under the moon. It was the only way i could fulfill your wish to be with me until the end of times, and you knew the price that had to be paid. Although there is no reason for me to sound so apologetic, now is there? You never had any regrets, never wished to go back, not once have you been unhappy with your choice. Only i still wonder if i had any right to give you this curse, even though you wanted me to, begged me to make you mine, would and did agree to anything to make it possible. 
Come one, come all, see the King dressed in monster skin and his undead Queen, rulers over the kingdom of repulsive nightmares until the world comes to an end. Pity no-one could see just how beautiful it all was, all they say was a sideshow circus, full of wonders and freaks, sad clowns and dead animals, deformed bodies and tortured souls. 
Was that the reason you had me destroy it all and walk away as the fires took up?