An overnight break up

Thursday 10:00 PM: Ideth: (Thinking as I lay in bed) I cant sleep. I keep thinking about so many different things. I dont know what i did wrong and i dont know what to do with my life. I am 21 years old and have no direction to where i am headed. I feel like my relationshio is falling apart. What am I going to do? No! Better yet, what the fuck did I do wrong? Why the fuck is he even breaking up with me? 

I dont....I never did anything to him, I never even cheated on him. Did he have a bad day or did he meet some other girl? No...no.. he said there is no other girl he is just done with my attitude; but i feel like i am like this because he wont pay attention to me. He wont even hold my hand anymore. Maybe it is me...Why am i even waisting my time with him? I never did anything wrong.......

• 11:00 PM Riley: Hey I;m going out..to dickson....and iam going to hate myself tomorrow since I have to wake up at 5:00. (he laughs in a sarcastinc way knowing he is making my suspicion of another women spiral uncntrollably out of my head) Ok.... well bye!
• 11:30 Sharon.. ( i get up and i stare at the door as he shuts it. I hear his friends at the door. They are laughing and talking about "other bittches" they are seeing. I hear Riley laugh at hteir stupid comments. I trully do not find it funny at all. I suddenly hear the front door shut. NO... I start to cry uncontrollably. I cant help it.) God please, I love him... Fix our relationship. We did not work this hard to be together and come this far just so that he can break up with me. Please God i still live here.. Dont let him do this to me. ( I get up and walk to what used to be our room. I smell the cologne i gave him for Christmas and see the mess of clothing on what used to be our bed. He dressed well. He smells good. I bet he looks so fine... Suddenly a swarm of memories come to me. The songs he had sang to me on Dickson. The nights he showed me off and said I was his and only his. He would hold me so close and kiss me. He didnt care.
• 12:00 Am: Ideth..( I finally got myselt to calm down. I guess I'll just take these pills and go to sleep.... Yes I'll sleep and I wont hear him come home. I wont smell the other girl all over him. I dont want to cry anymore.)
• 3:00 AM: Ideth... (I get up to get a glass of water. I start wondering if he is home. Some how i gathered the courage to open his door and hope to my dear Lord in heaven there is no one by his side but... he is not there....I close the door, walk down the hallway at a fast pace, across the dark living room and open the front door. His car isnt here. I call him. No answer. I try again. No answer..) What the fuck!!! ( I call one last time to leave a voice message.) Well, since you dont answer my calls anymore, I suppose you truly are having a good time out there since you never got home. I hope she makes you happy and takes care of you better than i did. You really broke my heart RIley. yet somehow, i still love you. ( I hang up and begin to cry.)
• 4:00 AM  ( Riley bursts my door open, waking me up.) Hey. I was aboit to go to jail. I tried to call you but my phone died and I think the cops kept it. I almost got in a fight and Tyler went o jail. Anyway, where are Rachels taxes?  
• Sharon: She's here? Why? ( thats Hes ex)
• Riley: Because she brought me home. That was the only number I knew at the top of my head and i called her so that she can give me your number and i tried to call you but i couldnt reach you. 
• Ideth: Um... they are on my desk.....
• RIley: Ok...BRB!
• 4;26  Ideth and Riley( He comes in and lets himself drop on my bed. At this point I am wondering why he took so long. He wont say anything. So i have too.) So... how is she? 
• Riley: Sad i guess. One of her friends... her son has brain cancer and i know the little dude... I guess he is going into surgery intwo weeks so that the doctors can try to remove it. Then her dad is dying of some other kind of cancer... I dont know. I'm sleepy. And I cant got o work like this I'm still drunk....So I go to Dickson... and some dumb ass is screaming... Niger, niger, niger... and I'm thinking... You cant do that shit its fucking offensive and it pisses me off.  I walk up to him so i can tell him to calm the fuck down and this dude tries to punch me... I'm like... What the fuck... So i start screaming at him and I'm about to swing at him and Tyler hold me back. Then Fucking Tyler... That dumb ass was swerving like a mother fucker and a cop stopped up and they took Tyler and they tried to take me but they couldnt because I wasnt driving.... So instead they took me to the nearest hotel..And that stupid Arabian guy at the front dest wouldnt fucking let me use the phone because I wasnt a customer...
• ideth: Wow.. you um.. had a rough night..
• Riley: No.. I paid 50 fucking dollars to try to call you but I had  no phone.. I couldnt remember your phone number so i called racheal to give me your number... Then i try to call you and it said something weird and i couldnt contact you... SO i had to call her ass to bring me home... And then this kid is dying and ...... AAAHHHH!!!!!!!...... I had such a terrible day today.. I fucking hate rolling matts...
• The room is silent for 2 minutes....
• Riley: BABE!!!!! I had a terrible day!!!!
• Ideth:( did he just call me babe??? What the fuck!!! I thought he broke up with me because .... I dont even know why?!?!?!?!?)
• Riley: come here baby..... give it to me.... My cock is out and its hard and ready for you... Suck it baby....
• Ideth: No...( I grab his face and turn him towards me) we are not having sex if we are not together.
• RIley: Well then fine take it litteral shit......
• Ideth: Are you goint to go to work?
• Riley: I dont know... I dont.... I cant... I'm drunk.
• Ideth: Hmmm.. well you should call in...
• Riley: NO... thats four fucking points......Come here baby im hard....
• Ideth: How about i just lay next to you.
• Riley: Naked.
• Ideth: No.
• He then falls asleep out of nowhere... 
• 5:30: Ideth: Are you not going to work?
• Riley: Yea. 
• He gets up wabbling around almost falling. He gets dressed. And he kisses me good bye and leaves...
• Ideth: WHAT IN THEE FUCK WAS THAT? ugh..... I dont know any more.. he ...ugh... GOD!!!!!! 
• RIley texts me: Hey babe... I love you!!!
  Ideth texts him back: Are we together again????? 
• Riley replies: I had a bad day. I'm sorry i took it out on you. 
• Ideth replies: WOW....... Learn to control yourself.... fucker...
• Riley texts back: I love you....lol....sorry.