Grace Part Nineteen.

So, Daniel was born and the amazing thing about that was, I was informed of his birth while I was still a virgin! God knew him before he was even conceived! I have pondered on those words given to Joy direct from God, “Before the end of the year, you will hold your baby in your arms.” That’s an incredible statement. We’d tried everything humanly possible, cannabis, alcohol, massages, diazepam, three counsellors at the same time, porn videos, glass tubes, pelvic floor exercises including things I’ve not mentioned like trying to have sex in unusual places!

I’m glad I listened to my Mum. Otherwise I wouldn’t have met Joy, Ruth and Rachael. I had four dreams when I was expecting Daniel. Only two I can remember, (I will look through my diary of when I was pregnant with him and I find them I will write them down again) I 100% knew he was a boy, where we live back then, I don’t know about now, they were not allowed to tell us the sex of the baby. 

I was classed at an older Mum-to-be and has lovely as he is, he was hard work, so we decided to not have another child, we were complete with Daniel. One day when he was still a baby, I was alone in the house and changing his nappy, suddenly about four inches from my head, from left to right I ‘heard’ these words, but the words weren’t out loud, “Your next baby will be a girl.” I wasn’t doing anything spiritual, it was just out of the blue! When Paul came home from work and I told him, he jokingly said, “If you have another child, I’m leaving!”  

When he was about four months old, I took him to the Place Of Worship that I used to go to but because I’d now got married, I’d moved far away, leaving the Town I’d grown up in and moving into Paul’s home. At the end of the Service there was the usual queue of people waiting to talk to Joy, Daniel and myself joined it. She was thrilled to see us, Joy held his little hand and he smiled at her, she said to me, in the biggest smile, “It’s about time you had another child,” I told her, “No, we are complete with Daniel.” Within two hours of the Service Joy had suddenly past away! We were all in shock. Daniel knows the story of Joy when she came to our home and later when she met him when he was four months old and he has seen her pictures. I’m very, very shy and never speak in public, for writing is my outlet, but I did speak for a minute or so, at the Celebration of her Life, with baby Daniel trying to take the microphone from me. 

To look at him, he has always when he was growing up, looked two years older than he was. I’d sometimes say to people in jest, “He should really be two years older than he is.” But they didn’t know what I meant.  Before he started school, for I didn’t want him to go until he was at least seven years old, for I wanted to protect him from cruel people and abuse, but he had to go when he was four, but his clothes were always two ages bigger, taller than his age I was about to write to Ladybird, the children’s clothing brand to ask them, “Why, have I got to always buy two ages bigger than his age?” But when he went to school and made friends, I saw his three best friends, none of them came to his shoulders! I realized then it wasn’t Ladybird, but Daniel who was tall.       

About a week after Joy has past away, I found out I was already pregnant, and SO much wanted to tell her. Like Daniel we know the exact date, it was Paul’s birthday! Nine months later Megan was born. I knew 100% before she was born that she was a girl, I saw the most beautiful slender hand and fingers, that was all that was in dream, just like her hands are now.
 
Like everyone else, Life has its ups and downs, twice Daniel has been to court, (The Scapegoat-Story) we knew he was innocent, he has some very unsavoury friends! And as the court dates loomed, I’d be nervous for the outcome, as innocent people still go to jail! I’d turn to the Bible for comfort and read these words: -

“You saw me before I was born, everyday of my life was recorded in your Book, every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.” Psalm Chapter 139 verse 16. He already knew the outcome.

I am now a Nanny, Daniel’s Son was born one day after his birthday, he is the spitting image of his Dad. Both kids are opposite in personality to each other, just ask the Teachers at school! One was an Ambassador for the school and a Prefect, the other not! They know our journey, we told them two years ago. But my ‘journey’ does not end here.