Paternity

Don't speak to me
I know your face
You reach in and destroy
My only restful place.
I have no more respite
I can no longer hide
Help me to comprehend
How you can abide.

How you can love me now
And then betray our bond?
Rip me till I no longer
Know how to respond?
My mind quickens it's pace
And it speeds up my thought
Racing around my brain
Battered and distraught.

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?
Can't I accept your truuth
Can't take you at your word
Until there's utter proof?
You may be hurting now
But I'm just hurting still -
You've fucked up every aspect of my life,
That's no mean skill.

Don't speak to me
Please no more abuse
I cannot stand to hear
How you plan to use
Me - for to my soul
You are the knife
Just slice me open
Who gives a fuck for life?

I'm more than you are now
You are not the core of me
I hate what you've become
I hate what you've let me see
Why not remain apart
Away from this sad game
Why treat me like a toy
Again and again and again...

Are you the only thing
My life is spent upon?
Why can't I just get past
The FUCKING PATERNAL BOND?