u - Last Look

You can deny it
(now)
call it 'shagging' in the pub,
to everyone else,
but then, at that moment,
you could not look me in the eyes
and when you did
when our eyes fused vision with meaning
just for a second
just for the sake of
making yourself feel better
and looking less of a cunt
you'd lied to us all.
We keep drinking
we keep wishing
things were different
but our eyes
are not the same
and we avoid looking.